32 Weeks!

There's something about 32 weeks and pregnancy with me.

I remember with Theo, it was this week that felt so significant, too.

Perhaps it's the kicks, feeling the strength in those little legs so strongly now. A brute kick to my ribs or a direct punch to my bladder..those bittersweet signs that seem to carry along a message from the babe within.. "Hey Mama, I'm getting big in here..are you going to let me out soon or what?"

And my belly...oh so big..and will still get bigger!

So back to 32 weeks.

I was 32 weeks when I started working on Theo's nursery. 32 weeks when I started sitting in my Grandma's rocking chair at night in Theo's room, surrounded by onesies and baby socks so small and only an idea of what it was going to be like to hold and nurture this baby, this baby that still seemed so unreal to me.

And then it was week 34 and I'd still sit in the rocking chair every night, imagining what labor and birth was going to be like while listening to Two Of Us~the version by Aimee Mann and Michael Penn and Ben Harper's version of Strawberry Fields Forever, feeling my heart getting bigger but still completely in the unknown about how much love was really going to come pouring in that first time I saw my baby and heard him cry.

36 weeks, Easter Sunday and the contractions were coming in waves. I practiced my breathing. This was the first night Eric and I sat in our oh~ so ~quiet living room and timed them. Then they went away.

And then there were more days like Easter Sunday and more nights in the rocking chair, the tunes filling my soul, awakening my spirit to one of life's most amazing journeys.

And it is now my 32 week green light to start this little babe's room. To move my Grandma's rocker to his room and sit at night, only this time it's Nina Simone's version of To Love Somebody that resonates in me and the real Beatles version of Mother Nature's Son. I will probably still stare in awe at the itty bitty onesies and socks. Love the big green tree art I bought for over his crib. Still feel anxious about how his birth will go. And I will begin renegotiating with him. You see, I've been promising him things if he'll just turn out of that silly transverse position to a beautiful head down position, and most recently I promised him a pony. Today we saw him and he's beautifully head down.

So now I must think of a promise I can keep and while I'm doing that, the days will pass and it will be week 34 and 36 and then the Day. I am so excited!

my WISH necklaces....I made my first one when I was newly pregnant with Theo. I wished that he'd stay with us and be healthy. Now I'm wearing one again, made with another wish for my newbie. The idea is that you make a wish and seal it by wearing a beautiful bead on silk thread. Eventually the thread will break and your wish will come true. If you'd like me to make you one, email me at woodyboots333 at yahoo dot com. I'd love to share....